almond bars

so i went to the doctor this week to see how my whole metabolic syndrome-ness is going.

the doctor made me feel all proud of myself for losing some poundage and being overall a little healthier but i guess i'm still not exactly where i need to be blood sugar wise.

i went there really hoping she would tell me i was doing good and i could get off the medication that makes me nauseous 24/7 and on those really super fun days has me puking but sadly, i have to stay on it for now.

i know i felt the absolute best when we were on our ketogenic diet and i've heard lots of success stories of people who can get off this medication if they stick with this diet but it's sooooo hardddd.

we did it for a good month with barely any cheating and both Matt and i lost over 10 pounds in that one month but you hardly get to eat anything.

well, that's not true.

you get to eat a lot of meat and veggies and dairy but with my lactose intolerance i don't get the dairy part and i'm allergic to a lot of veggies too so it's like taking a very limited diet and making it super duper BEYOND limited.

but i'm determined to find an amazing balance of the keto diet with maybe a little extra stuff to make me not want to throw myself off a ridiculously tall building.

basically i'm gonna try a bunch of new foods and weird recipes to see what i like and what's healthy but tasty enough to keep in my diet long term.

and i'll be posting about it for my own benefit so i can remember likes and dislikes and also for anyone who is interested in eating healthy along with me!

so Matt and i wandered around Trader Joe's this week and found these healthy looking bars called Five Seed Almond Bars.

i've been putting off trying them for a couple days now but today i put my big girl pants on and tried them out.

and guess what...THEY ARE DELICIOUS!

they're nutty and cinnamony and probably the best tasting health bar i've tried.

only problem is, we didn't notice they have butter in them until after i had one this morning so no more delicious cinnamon nutty goodness for me anymore.

insert sad face here.

but Matt loved them too so he'll get to gobble up all those bad boys.

and after eating this i decided breakfast bars are totally genius for those mornings you don't want to cook or, if you're like Matt, you're already 15 minutes late to work by the time you head out the door.

 so i searched the interwebz for some breakfast bar type recipes and found some i'm going to try out!

basically anything that can give us a little break from eating eggs every single morning would be nice!

sad puppy

it's the worst thing in the universe when your baby is sick.

and when i say baby i mean my little Padme baby.

last thursday and friday she was acting really weird.

all tired and her eyes were really glossy/red and she went through most of the day without opening them and when she did she would just squint at everything.

i was immediately worried, like a good mama should be, and starting googling around to see what could possibly be wrong with her.

boy, was that a bad idea.

i started seeing all these scary things about how squinting and glossy eyes can mean she's going blind!

i talked to Matt and told him our pup needs to see a vet because if something really bad is going on i want to stop it before it gets worse.

the vet was so nice and let us come in the same day to get her checked.

she had all these horrible tests done to her eyes and i felt so bad for her.

she let the doctor stick things in her eyes and turn her eyes green (seriously weird).

she was such a champ though! she didn't even try to yank her head away or anything!

she's the best pup ever!

after all the crazy tests we found out she's a very healthy girl (yay!) and she didn't have anything serious but she does have conjuctivitis.

basically her eyes were hurting her a lot so the only thing she could do to make it stop was keep them closed as much as possible.

poor baby!

we were sent home with some eye medicine for her and the vet said she should be better in a few days.

she was so sad all night after the vet.

i babied the heck out of her to make up for it though.

now it's been 3 full days of the eye medicine and i think she's doing better.

she'll actually keep her eyes open now and i don't notice as much glossy eye-ness.

her eyes are still a little red but we have to continue the medicine for a while so i'm sure that'll go away soon.

i hated this whole ordeal probably just as much as she did.

i can only imagine what future me is going to be like when i have a real little person to take care of and they get sick.

i'm sure i'll be a wreck!

sleepy face

i've completely forgotten what sleep feels like.

i know i've had insomnia forever but i haven't slept in days. that's right, DAYS!

i don't know if it's the new medication i'm on or what but it's impossible.

i'm too hot or can't get comfy or something is too bright or Matt sits up to roll over and scares the crap out of me (happened last night) or i have to pee or puppy shakes or i'm constantly thinking or whateverrrrrr.

at least i can download my work at 6:00 AM and get started on it.

i have a feeling the house will be very clean after today because of all the extra time i'm going to have.

and yes, i do wear a chuck norris shirt to sleep in.

oh nikki is so cool!