this can't be happening to me

something terrible is happening in my life right now.

it's actually so bad that i don't know if i'm going to survive it.

basically this is the kind of thing that nightmares are made of.

i can't eat my favorite things!!

a strange thing happened to me on July 5th when we had our family 4th of July party.

my mom had watermelon out and i ate like 5 slices of it and it was delicious.

but then after i ate all that watermelon i remembered that i am slightly allergic to it.

i never even thought about it because i have watermelon probably once a year, on the 4th of July.

so my mouth started to get kinda itchy like it always does when i eat something i'm allergic to but i just didn't worry about it.

then my brother and sister-in-law made some homemade strawberry ice cream for us and it was taaaaaasty but after i ate it i started noticing that it was getting hard for me to breathe because my throat was getting all puffy.

i thought i just needed a drink or something but then it didn't go away, it actually kept getting worse.

i didn't even realize i was having an allergic reaction to something until i explained what was happening to Matt and my parents and they told me i was.

and as if having my throat close up isn't scary enough, since i'm also a little asthmatic nerd it's double scary for me.

so i'm trying not to panic and i use an inhaler and i get a drink of water and i take some benadryl but nothing helps the swelling in my throat go down and i have to listen to Matt say i sound like Batman all night long.

it was not a good way to spend my holiday.

since that night i have had a sore throat and stuffy head (yes it's now been over a week) and have noticed that foods that used to just itch my throat are now causing much more damage.

life is so sad now.

the list of things i used to know for sure i was allergic to include...

anyone see a pattern here?

FRUITS!!

there is nothing more important to me than fruits!

i love them! ALL OF THEM!

and now my list of things that i'm allergic to is spreading to include...

i want to cry.

mostly because of the last 2 items.

i eat strawberries whenever i can and i don't eat just one, i eat MANY!

and i put avocado on everything that i can.

how am i supposed to eat a turkey and avocado sandwich without avocado??

nobody likes just turkey!

it needs its friend, the avocado!!

and guacamole!!! HOW AM I GOING TO EAT CHIPS?!?!

and i use to be able to say "oh well i can handle a little itchy throat to eat my favey fave foods" but now i can't!

i had a sandwich today with avocado on it and my head hasn't stopped hurting since!

i can barely keep my eyes in focus!

and my throat is all stuffy too!

this is very bad for me.

i feel very bad for me.