stress free is the way to be

i stress way too much.

there, i said it.

i'm sure my levels of stress are about 25% due to the fact that i'm a girl and that's what we do but 75% due to the fact that i'm crazy in the head.

i make insane expectations for myself and am constantly adding thing after thing to my to-do list when i know i won't be able to finish it all.

and then when i don't finish it all i'm upset and frustrated and even more stressed.

so i decided i'd like to get all this under control. 

no need for excess amounts of stress in your life right?

life is for fun and happiness and eating delicious junk food and snuggling puppies and playing on slip and slides.

i think the biggest thing that could help with my stress is changing my being trapped indoors situation.

i work from home and since we only have one car that Matt takes to work well...here i am, stuck until he comes back at night and by that time it's late and we usually just stay in.

not having a car limits what i can do outside of the house but it is summer time and our neighborhood does have a pool so i thought to myself "self, you should at least get out of the house and lay around by the pool on the days you're in need of a stress relieving good time."

and that's what i started to do.

me and kindy have made a couple trips to the pool this week to relax and if during that time my skin decides to turn from pasty white to a more attractive color, i wouldn't mind that too much.

i'm trying really hard to see these little pool outings as something fun to do instead of just another thing to add to my to-do list.

at least once this week i felt myself starting to feel like it was a thing i had to do every single day and therefore i would have to make time for it and that would mean i wouldn't be able to get this and this done before this had to happen and blahhhhhhhhhhhhh.

again, loca en la cabeza.

this is just for fun!

and it's even more fun if Matt gets to do it with me.

this morning he went in to work a little late so we got to lay out and splash around in the pool and then eat breakfast together.

we NEVER get to do that and i loved it!

anyway...here's to the start of my stress free summer/life.

please send all kinds of stress reducing thoughts my way.

patience and presents

man, 2012 has been a doozy so far. 

apparently when i asked that 2012 help me grow as a person it didn't want to waste any time.

and it has also decided that my number one strength i need to practice is patience.
which is probably one of the most annoying things to practice ever ever ever ever.
before this i thought i was a relatively patient person.
 i would wait at a restaurant for the waitress to come by without getting upset or wait for my turn on the slide without shoving the other kids.
in my mind that means i'm patient.
but there are so many things going on right now and patience is kinda getting in the way of life and it's making me grumpy and worried and ughhhh.

so here i sit, pretending to be patient while my mind goes berserk thinking about all the things i could be doing if i could just know everything right now.
my level of stress couldn't be higher.
dang you 2012 and your patience-learning ways. 

in other news...
i haven't had a chance to tell the universe about our most amazing late Christmas presents.
first...

the Kindle!!
i was lucky enough to get a large gift card to use on an item of my choosing and this is what i chose!
i'm sure most people will be surprised because i'm more the type to plop myself down in front of the tv rather than pick up a book but i seriously love this thing.
i've already read like 4 books and i've only had it a couple weeks.
i really think it makes me read faster. it has magical powers that can do that ya know.
so now anybody and everybody should give me book recommendations since i'm all smart and bookish now!

and our second amazing present...

iPhone 4s!
Matt has been begging for an iPhone since the day he found out about them and i've been the terrible grinchy wife who wouldn't let him get one.
well now i'm an angel sent from above because i bought him one!
BEST WIFE AWARD!
he got the black one and i got the white one and now we're busy iPhoning it up.
we got words with friends going on and everyone should start a game with me!
username: ohNIKKIissocool
and Matt is seriously in love with Siri. so weird.
and we finally joined the world of Instagram.
proof:

kindle time. i think Padme likes my new reading self because we get a bunch of cuddle time together.

my favorite picture of Padme ever.

close up of yours truly.

so if you put together our new iPhones and my Kindle you realize that Matt and i have gone up about 20 cool points in just the last couple weeks.
that's right!!

now i'm gonna go try my hardest to continue being patient.

so far my Google reader is testing me because it hasn't been working.

yes i know how lame that sounds but let's be honest, you would be peeved too.